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The Paradox Series by [livejournal.com profile] wordstrings, [archiveofourown.org profile] wordstrings, NC-17, kink, dark themes including violence, torture, self harm and suicide. Her Sherlock is in many ways Not Well, and it's sometimes difficult to read.  It's also at times amazingly beautiful and poignant.
The series has been podficced by [livejournal.com profile] pandarus, [livejournal.com profile] bronwynferchdai, [livejournal.com profile] revolutionaryjo, and [livejournal.com profile] song_lin. Links here and here. The readings are exceptionally well done, and really lent to the emotions I got while hearing the story for the first time.

A while back I posted about BBC Sherlock, and how I couldn’t figure out his character, or figure out how I felt about him and his relationship to John. Things got rough for me in RL for a while so I didn’t pursue the fandom, but the podfic for the series had been on my phone for months, and I figured I was way overdue to listen. Well, surprisingly enough, it sorted all my issues with Sherlock out neatly. This is Sherlock Holmes (BBC version, anyway) to me: brilliant, crazy, totally out of touch with our reality but trying trying to live his life without fucking everything up anyway. He’s not normal – far beyond normal, in fact- but he can still fall in love, still care about doing the right thing – all in his own way. He’s not Moiriorty, but he’s not John either, and Wordstrings pegs him dead center for how I think he is.

It’s been a remarkable journey listening to the series and feeling like I’d found the character. After Season 1 I was in love, but totally unsure of how to ship John and Sherlock, or even how to put my finger on Sherlock’s character. After Season 2 I was totally moved by Sherlocks depth of feeling and the lengths he would go to keep everyone safe (and thus able to ship them a little easier), but still no closer to understanding Sherlock. Wordstrings gives a shape and color and weight to his character and world view that I just couldn’t come up with on my own, but that fit perfectly to me.


Thou art no thy lane series by [livejournal.com profile] shinychimera and [livejournal.com profile] yeomanrand, Mature
Their Sherlock is less outrageous, but it still felt real and right to me. I absolutely loved this series as a follow-up to Reichenbach.
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[Note: I wrote this up at the beginning of 2012 but didn't post it then. It felt too... self-indulgent, and way too TMI. I felt too raw to put this out there. Now, 8 months later, I'm feeling a lot better about the state of my life, so it doesn't feel so difficult, or like such an enormous mistake.]

There are times when I’m in an emotional funk, when it feels like the wheels are spinning but I’m going nowhere. At those times I look to fic as an escape. Sometimes I want something darker to read, something with some bite to it. Something to kick me out of my funk - or maybe to heighten it, it’s hard to tell. Either way, the fluff and romance and rainbows just isn’t cutting it when I’m in that mood. That’s when I look for Hurt/Comfort, or heavy angst. Sometimes I look for comfort, or at least angst that's heavy on the comfort part, but most of my comfort fics have already been recced elsewhere in my journal, so I won’t re-rec them. So that means this list is heavy on the hurt and angst.

I’m starting each section out with the fics that pack the biggest emotional punch for me, which mostly means the really hurty ones, and ending with more comfort. There is comfort in most of these (especially those towards the end of the list), but a hell of a lot of hurt, too. There's also probably TMI for my general emotional state over the last year or so, but I tried to keep it from being too bad.


 
The Hurt )

My Father Before Me by [livejournal.com profile] telleer: SGA, McKay/Sheppard, R, major character death (in the past), kid!fic
Summary: Even after twenty years, Rodney still has no idea how to raise children. Futurefic.
Author's notes: In all the kidfic I have ever read, Rodney and John are the perfect parents. At some point in February, I got bored with the concept and decided to put my own spin on it.

This has the distinction of being top of the list of fics that absolutely wrecked me. It’s future kid!fic in which everything has gone wrong for Rodney. It’s raw and hurtful, and I sobbed after reading it - I literally cried myself to sleep. It’s like telleer took my most persistent fears about raising children and wrapped them up with my OTP and delivered them to me with a bow on top. This one is pretty much for those times I just need to cry.


In For Repairs by [livejournal.com profile] shinychimera and [livejournal.com profile] yeomanrand (LJ, AO3): Star Trek: AOS, Kirk/McCoy, NC-17 (sex, violence, and filthy mouths)
Warning(s): MAY BE TRIGGERY, please read warnings carefully! Some violent and bloody scenes, including assault and self-harm. Short descriptions of outright rape, other gradations of dubious consent. Discussions of child abuse. Cutting and scarification. Unhealthy pain play, evolving toward something better. (Masochism in a trusting BDSM context is a lovely thing. Pathological self-destructiveness isn't. This hurt/comfort story hits various parts of the continuum in between, but we don't mean to imply that they're the same thing.) Explicit sex. Oh, and lots and lots of profanity.
Summary
: Young Jim Kirk is unstable and self-destructive, Leonard McCoy is withdrawn and wary, and the obstacles to surviving their first term at Starfleet Academy are not easy to overcome. A dark and brutal tale of the tangled borders between healing and hurting, where hard choices between emotions and ethics have far-reaching consequences; dealing with abuse and alcoholism, affection and neglect, piercings and bar fights, hot and cold sex, complicated questions of consent, and loyalty and love between people who aren't comfortable with either. A whole new spin on "I want my pain, I need my pain."

I wasn't prepared for the way this fic knocked me on my ass when I read it. I don't self harm, but I know exactly what it's like to feel trapped inside your head by whirling emotions (I think of it as an emotional storm), and needing desperately a diversion to get away from yourself. As it happened, Jim was going through something similar in this fic, though taken to an extreme I've never gone to. Nevertheless, I identified with him. Jim's journey through the fic was deeply emotional and it was cathartic for me to read. It's a sledgehammer of a fic, and yet I think the relationship and trust between Jim and Bones was developed carefully and beautifully. I was very moved by the end of the fic at the lengths Bones went to help Jim heal. Plus, this takes my desire to whump Jim to a whole new level.


The Harder They Fall and For All the Right Reasons by [livejournal.com profile] mijan (also on AO3): Star Trek: AOS, NC-17
Warnings: Intense, hardcore, and potentially triggery. Mind-fuck. If you want spoilers to decide if it's something you can read, feel free to ping me with questions.
Summary: Jim is having trouble coping with his first failure of the Kobayashi Maru. His bigger problem might lie in the fact that he wants to try it again.

The Harder They Fall was another fic that completely knocked me out of my head by putting the characters into extreme physical conditions. It was somehow cathartic for me to read, despite never having been in any similar situation myself. It contains graphic and intense violence, and it seriously is a mind fuck.

For All The Right Reasons is written as an explanation for Fall. Mijan actually does a good job of fitting such an extreme story into the larger story arc she's telling. If you want to lessen the impact of Fall a little bit, read it first. Both are part of Mijan's Academy Series (which is epic and outstanding), and familiarity with that will probably help you understand For all the Right Reasons a little better.


The Price That Life Exacts by [personal profile] cathalin : SGA, McKay/Sheppard, NC-17, Kid!fic, angst
Summary: When John disappears without a trace during a routine mission, people in a beleaguered Atlantis eventually have to try to move on. Rodney never completely gives up hope of finding John, and though he soldiers on to help Atlantis, a year later he still lives every day with his grief. The story opens with a shocking discovery that may help Rodney come to terms with some truths about himself and his relationship with John, and will have consequences beyond what anyone might predict.
Warnings: I've placed warnings for this story in the Notes at the bottom, as they are somewhat spoilery for the fic. Please scroll down and read the warnings if there are things you need to avoid reading about.

Another kid!fic, but this one has a lot more going on than the kid. The angst, for one thing - so much angst. Mildly spoilery bit: John is so, so damaged in this, and the way Rodney brings him back is very touching. Also, there is music that is used in an amazing way.


Losing Touch by [livejournal.com profile] cards_slash: Star Trek:AOS, McCoy/Jocelyn, Spock, Kirk
Summary: McCoy wakes up one day, on earth, still married to his wife, who thinks he's insane, when he starts talking about star ships and someone named Jim Kirk.

The life Bones might have had. This one is beautifully written, and heartbreaking. I was all "Oh god I need a hug!" by the end of it.


The Lovers, the Dreamers, and Me by [livejournal.com profile] thalialunacy: Star Trek: AOS RPF, Karl/Chris, R
Summary: Chris' birthday sucks. Until it doesn't anymore.

A simple little fic in which Chris despairs of making anything of his life. I love the way Thalia writes emotion into the smallest thing. Also, I love Karl in this. It's like balm for the soul <3








 
The Comfort )

As expected, it's short, but many of the fics and podfics I've already recced here in my journal are also comfort fics for me.

The Horshoe Nails Series by Dyce: Firefly/Serenity, River/Jayne is the primary romance but it's really an ensemble series, Teen, some violence, discussions of mental and emotional trauma, and romance
Part 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 on FF.net.
Summary for Two Gorram Days (part 1): Jayne is left all alone with a bad leg and a crazy girl for two days. It doesn't go as badly as it could.

Dyce does an amazing job of developing the whole crew, but especially River and Jayne, into sympathetic and whole characters. She takes the small amount of info about the Academy we are given in cannon and really delves into its impact on River's mind and life, and then guides River out of the darkness and into a real life with the crew. She takes Jayne, a character commonly portrayed as dumb, uncouth and self-serving in cannon, and makes him into a surprisingly sensitive and loyal partner for River, all in a way that feels very organic and IC to me. Her portrayal of Simon is also fantastic. There is romance, humor, fighting for one's life, and an ending to the Big Damn Movie that is more satisfying than the movie itself. It seems that Part 5 is not actually finished, which is a crying shame. It hasn't been updated since 2008 so I don't know how much hope there is for it. However, I think the whole thing is worth reading anyway.

This has been my number one comfort fic (series, whatever) over the last year or so. I can't even tell you how many times I've read it. There were days where I finished the last story and started right back over again with the first story. It's also my favorite Firefly fic of all time, River/Jayne or otherwise. River's journey through the series is very inspiring to me. Like Jayne says in one of the parts, I respect her fight, and reading along with it never gets old to me.


Found Your Writing On My Wall by [livejournal.com profile] thalialunacy: Star Trek: AOS RPF, Karl/Chris, NC-17, Mary Sue fic!
Summary: He shouldn't call her. He knows he shouldn't. It goes against his upbringing and his personal morals to call a girl just because her accent makes him miss a possession that was never really his. He picks up his phone anyway.

There is a lot of angst in this one, but it's overwhelmingly a comfort fic for me. The snark, the longing, the dialog, and my boys - it's a perfect Urbine. Plus, it has the best Mary Sue in a fic you'll ever read.

ETA:  OMG, I totally forgot that Thalia recorded this as a podfic here.  It's a fantastic read, I really enjoyed it.
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This was posted by [personal profile] paraka here at [community profile] podficmeta . There is a version for podfic creators and listeners. I've done the listener version, as I've yet to record a podfic.



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I had the good fortune recently to be a beta for two excellent projects that I wanted to rec to you all.

Parallel Motion (Or: Fate, Crunchy Cheetos, and a Bunch of Other Things Chris Pine Didn't Believe In) by [livejournal.com profile] thalialunacy, art by [livejournal.com profile] karneol_visionStar Trek Reboot RPS, Chris/Karl, NC-17, knotting and Mpreg
In a world with a happily secret, slightly oversexed, Hollywood-centered underbelly of werewolves, Chris Pine is a reluctant hipster alpha just trying to make a name for himself and still maintain the freedom to flip off the paps and wear however many white t-shirts he wants. He has no interest in being weighed down by centuries of tradition and the responsibilities of his station; he just wants to get laid.
Then he meets Karl Urban, and finds out all the lore he never believed is actually true--there is such a thing as a perfect mate. The only hitch? This one's married. Oh, and human.

I had the pleasure of reading along as Thalia wrote this, and it was so much fun seeing her bring this to life.  The concept of a werewolf alternate world was new to me, as was knotting, but both ideas were really fun.  I always love Urbine, but she turned the tables on me by writing Chris as the dominant in the relationship, the Alpha Male as it were.  I typically read Karl as the dom (in relationships with power exchanges), but damn did Thalia make me enjoy toppy!Chris!  There was angst and destiny and babies, and a fantastic Pinto friendship.  And as always, Parallel Motion sparkled with her brand of witty and emotive dialog.  I very much enjoyed this fic.  The art for this is also amazing.  It's gorgeous and heartbreaking and so evocative. 


The Winter of Banked Fires fic by [livejournal.com profile] yahtzee63 read by [livejournal.com profile] podcath, [livejournal.com profile] crinklysolution, [livejournal.com profile] luzula, [livejournal.com profile] helens78, [livejournal.com profile] heyiya, [livejournal.com profile] rhea314, and [livejournal.com profile] reena_jenkins.
X-Men movies, from First Class through XM3, Erik/Charles, Marie/Logan, Raven/Hank, NC-17
Charles Xavier has returned from the dead -- but is lost within his own mind. Rogue has cast aside her own power and doesn't know where she fits in the world any longer. The production of synthetic Cure means mutantkind itself is newly at risk. And Magneto, turned human against his will, is in despair until the day he feels a familiar consciousness tugging at his own --
This is an absolutely amazing fic.  Yahtzee did an excellent job of taking the existing cannon and remaking it into something powerful and rewarding.  The characters were believable, the plot was exciting, and the relationships were phenomenal.  Truly excellent relationships between Erik/Charles and Marie/Logan.  And the podfic, which was what I helped beta listen, was an excellent union of many readers making the story come to life.  So many wonderful readers!  This fic is long, and the POV shifts from chapter to chapter.  Each reader read one particular character, so each chapter had a new reader.  It was an excellent premise for a group podfic, and [livejournal.com profile] podcath did a wonderful job of tying all the chapters together.

J2 Recs

Dec. 14th, 2010 07:47 pm
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This here's for [livejournal.com profile] thalialunacy  who is starting on the J2 journey.  And anyone else who likes Jensen/Jared.  OMG it kind of snowballed into this huge thing too.  Also, this fandom is HUGE so please feel free to comment with important things I've missed here.




Fic )

Podfic )

Fanvids )

And check my Jensen/Jared tag or my delicous for a few more podfic and fic recs.



ETA: It figures that I make a massive J2 recpost and two days later find one of the most amazing stories I've ever read.  *shakes head*  So here's the addendum to that post:

The Doors of Time by [livejournal.com profile] felisblanco : NC-17 (second part), magic, music and angst
It’s not like he doesn’t try to fit in and make friends, he really does. It just seems like nothing he does is good enough for them. If he smiles they blink. If he speaks they stare. And whenever they see him coming they get this panicked look in their eyes like they want to run away and they don’t even know why.
Jensen knows why. It’s the same thing that makes his dad worry and his mom cry. That makes Nana tell his parents he’s going to Hell, not even caring that he can hear her.
It’s what makes him ‘weird’.

One of the most vivid, lyrical and emotional fics I've ever read.  The words just flowed and built worlds around Jensen and Jared that felt so tangible and personal.  She weaves piano music into the story through the words and by interspersing song files through the fic and I really, really loved that.  It gave a whole other aspect to the story than you usually get.  This story made me cry several times, and that's pretty unusual for me.  She created characters that I felt so invested in and wanted so badly to be happy.  It went beyond my desire for them to have a romantic relationship, I needed for them to be ok just on a basic level.  The music also really affected me.  It felt like the songs she picked distilled the emotions from the story and pierced my heart with them, amplifying the joy and grief alike.  By the end I felt wrung out emotionally in all the best ways that fic can cause.  This fic comes highly recced by me.
Note: There is also a video for this fic which I don't think is linked in the masterpost linked above.  It's The Doors of Time by Ketch2510.  (Link goes to YouTube)

ETA 2: Spoilers for Someone You Might Have Been and The Doors of Time in the comments!!
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I've been enjoying the shit out of some podfics lately. It's my new favorite thing while driving, pulling weeds, cleaning the house, or eating lunch. There is something so amazing about having fanfic with you everywhere, even when there is no internet or no hands available to hold a book. The downside of podfics is the feedback part. I listen when I'm away from the computer, and when I get back I don't often remember to go find the author/reader and feedback. Which is lousy on my part, so I'll have to do better. The other downside is that with NC-17 slash Podfics (and voice memos, and wordpad notes) on my iPhone, I get twitchy as a grasshopper in a hen house when anyone picks up my phone. You've got to keep a close eye on what people browse into!

A lot of these links come from the Audiofic Archive.  Almost all of the links to that archive are for the Audiobook format (.m4b) because that's what I prefer.  I like the way my iPod will bookmark my spot in the story, and link chapters together.  For a huge series like Illogical that's important.  However, all the fics on that archive also come in MP3 format.  To find them click on the author, reader, fandom or pairing tag and search until you find what you want.  All of the podfic posts I've linked below contain links to the fic.  You can find more communities that post or host podfics here at my pinboard.

Here are some that I've really enjoyed.



ST:XI )


J2 )


SGA - Slash and Gen )



Miscellaneous Fandoms (one story each):



American Idol )


Mythbusters )


Sherlock Holmes )

ETA:  Recently a Podfic lovememe took place, but I just found it, so I'm linking it anyway.

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I'm feelin the fic love today and thought I'd rec some of my faves, plus one vid and one podfic.

I was recently reminded of how much I LOVE the Convergence 'verse by [livejournal.com profile] shaenie  (fic) and I felt the need to rec it for posterity.  It is my favorite lotrips fic hands down, and some of my favorite fic of all time.  In it Billy and Dom get together and then include Elijah. NC-17, pretty heavy BDSM and D/s, gorgeous relationship development with lots of tension followed by excellent sex.  She's a skilled writer that imbues the BDSM with love and intimacy, and throws in the angst to really hit your heart.  This is a threesome fic and it's probably the best one I've read.  Usually threesomes have a feel of "the more the merrier" to me.  It doesn't feel real to me, it feels like porn.  That's fine (no problems with porn ;) I just don't get very emotional about them usually.  But in this one the three of them need to be together, it's not a plot device to turn me on, it feels natural and real.  The same with the BDSM.  It's not done for kink, it's what they need.  She has a way of writing that makes it so real to me, I get emotionally moved, not just turned on.  It makes Elijah's journey of discovery so breathtaking.  I can't urge you enough to read it.

Here is what I wrote to her in my feedback for the latest installment:  "I don't even have the words to tell you how much this fic gets to me. I LOVE the intensity of emotion, from lust, passion, tenderness, love and being overwhelmed by them all. That's what makes all the pain and struggle for dominance and angst so damn good for me. Somehow everything you write them doing emphasizes their emotions and motivations, distilling them down to their pure essence. One of the other commenters said that you get a feeling of there being more than just what's on the page, somehow more to the characters and motivations. I liked that, it's so true. It's like the relationship is actually real, it feels so *right*. The way you reveal what you choose to show us excites and fulfills me, yet leaves me hungry for more. It is a profoundly satisfying mix, and it ensures that I will be rereading these for years."

You can read the series at the AO3 Here all at once, or at her LJ with the following links:
The order (more or less - they were not written in this order ) :
Cusp: Part One, Two, Three
Contentment
Catalyst
(outtake: Memento)
Contrast
Convergence
Confrontation
Conversation
Contemplation
Calibration


Sacrifice by Josephine Darcy.  BSG fic (original series), R, Starbuck/Apollo:  Lots of kissing. 
Plot: Starbuck and Apollo have to pretend to be married to trade for the fuel that the fleet so desperately needs.  It's a beautiful fic, sweet and tender.  I loved it, all of it.  I love the kissing, it was hot and romantic and tender all rolled up together.  I love the way Starbuck recognizes his feelings for Apollo through his physical actions, in a way that his rational brain never allowed him to realize.  I think all the handholding and hugging is very romantic.  I love the way Apollo craves Starbuck's touch, even a simple touch on the cheek or his hand in his hair.  Her descriptions of him in their more tender moments were so beautiful.  I have to admit that I am only familiar with the new show so I see Jamie Bamber in her descriptions of Apollo, but they fit Jamie perfectly to me.  It's all about opening up to love and how sweet that can be.  Even if you don't watch Battlestar Galactica you can read it.  The author gives enough back-story about the characters that the relationship will still be meaningful to you.


Snow On The Sahara by [livejournal.com profile] absrip.  SPN vid R (also on YouTube here):  
"This is a vid about the aftermath of evil!Sam, told from Dean's POV. "   It is officially the vid that will make me watch Supernatural. I have resisted so far because I don't do horror(I scare way too easily and the show has been a bit intense for me) but this is so beautiful I have to see more of the relationship.  Plus Jensen is hot as fuck - that may be my real reason. There is hurt and angst and kissing and hugging - the vidder uses several manips and they are so good I really couldn't tell if they were manips or part of the show.  Absolutely gorgeous.  I usually don't do vid slash because fic can be so much more graphic (thus so much more fun :) and I'm not really into Wincest, but this one was done so well it just melted my heart.

So Snow was the straw that broke the camel's back, but [livejournal.com profile] strippedpink's J2 fics have been buttering me up for the fall.  Particularly her New OTP 'Verse.  NC-17.  It's amazingly sexy.  It's Smallville-era!Jensen and Gilmore Girls-era!Jared and how they get together before the show.  It's got really sexy dialog and it's hot and dirty and just so good.


I recently heard my first podfic.  It was Rebuilding Babel by [livejournal.com profile] fiercelydreamed, read by [livejournal.com profile] wintercreek.  SGA McKay/Sheppard, R: 
Rodney is injured and looses the ability to understand language, and to speak it. John helps him learn to use an ancient tool to communicate in a very unusual way.  She utterly breaks Rodney down to his very core and exposes his soul, and then gives him John to rebuild himself around.  It's so beautiful in a heartwrenching way.  Brilliant concept, and so well written. Dramatic with lots of angst, but also the occasional funny part to lighten the mood. Very well read, the reader lends an urgency to the story that is spot on.  I loved it and stayed up way too late to finish it.

Dog Tag Porn by [livejournal.com profile] xela_fic - SGA fic McKay/Sheppard NC-17: 
Major submission by Rodney, heavy BDSM and an unusual collar.  I love the way the author gets inside their heads.  Rodney's submission feels real and makes *me* feel like flying, and John's so perfect as the top who knows how to push all of Rodney's buttons, as the one in charge.  So so good.


Submission Games By R. Cooper - CSI fic NC-17 Nick/Greg:  Greg comes home early and Nick is surprised by some things, namely Greg in a skirt and collar.  Crossdressing, kink, first time for Nick, minor D/s issues.  I really love the way this one is written.  Nick is shocked to find out about this side of Greg, and the shock and later anticipation just comes through so well in the writing.  It feels exhilarating to read about Nick discovering how much he responds to Greg.

You can find more of the fic that I love at my delicious account, and check out my 5star tag for my absolute favorites.

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